Justin Bieber shared a lengthy post where he opened up about his struggles with stardom, how being a child star affected him and led him to doing drugs, disrespecting women, and almost destroyed his life by getting him to the point where he didn’t want to “live anymore”.

LIB reported that the 25-year-old singer, who became a star at 13, spoke on finding it “hard to get out of bed in the morning with the right attitude” when it “feels like there’s troubles after trouble after trouble.

He went on to write about being “overwhelmed with the mistakes of his “past, job, responsibilities, emotions, family, finances, relationships…”

He also talked about how his parents had him really young and were separated at 18 and how this instability affected him. He also spoke about how being a child star and being praised by the world got into his head. He said that as a result of this, people did everything for him and he grew up with no real life skills.

He stated that touring took its toll on him and he began doing drugs, disrespecting women, and became distant from everyone who loved him until he was at his lowest point in life and had to make a change.

He credits his marriage to Hailey Baldwin Bieber for helping him overcome his hardships.

He wrote in the lengthy post which he captioned, “Hope you find time to read this it’s from my heart”,

It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning with the right attitude when you you are overwhelmed with your life your past, job, responsibilities,emotions, your family, finances, your relationships. When it feels like there’s trouble after trouble after trouble. You start foreseeing the day through lenses of “dread” and anticipate another bad day. A cycle of feeling disappointment after disappointment. Sometimes it can even get to the point where you don’t even want to live anymore. Where you feel like it’s never going to change.. I can fully sympathize with you. I could not change my mindset. I am fortunate to have people I’m life that continue encourage me to keep going. You see I have a lot of money , clothes cars , accolades, achievements, awards and I was still unfulfilled. Have u noticed the statistics of child stars and the outcome of their life? There is an insane pressure and responsibility put on a child who’s brain, emotions, frontal lobes (decision making) aren’t developed yet. No rationality, defiant, rebellious, things all of us have to go through. But when you add the pressure of stardom it does something to you that is quite unexplainable. You see I didn’t grow up in a stable home, my parents were 18 separated with no money still young and rebellious as well. As my talent progressed and I became ultra successful it happened within a strand of Two years. My whole world was flipped on its head. I went from a 13 year old boy from a small town to being praised left and right by the world with millions saying how much they loved me and how great I was. I don’t know about you but humility comes with age. You hear theses things enough as a young boy and you actually start believing it, Rationality comes with age and so does your decision making process ( one of the reasons you can’t drink until your 21) .. everyone did everything for me so I never even learned the fundamentals of responsibility. So by this point I was 18 with no skills in the real world, with millions of dollars and access to whatever I wanted. This is a very scary concept for anyone. By 20 I made every bad decision you could have thought of and went from one of the most loved and adored people in the world to the most ridiculed, judged and hated person in the world! Being on stage according to studies is a bigger dopamine rush than almost any other activity… so these massive ups and downs on their own are very hard to manage. You notice a lot of touring bands and people end up having a phase of drug abuse, and i believe its due to not being able to manage the huge ups and downs that come with being an entertainer.

I started doing pretty heavy drugs at 19 and abused all of my relationships. I Became resentful, disrespectful to women, and angry. I became distant to everyone who loved me, and i was hiding behind, a shell of a person that i had become. I felt like i could never turn it around. It’s taken me years to bounce back from all of these terrible decisions, fix broken relationships, and change relationship habits. Luckily god blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me. Now i am navigating the best season of my life “MARRIAGE” !! Which is a an amazing crazy new responsibility. You learn patience, trust, commitment, kindness, humility and all of the things it looks like to be a good man.